You Lift Me Up

You lift me up when I am weak, your arms wrap around me, your love carries me, so I'm letting go. You lift me up, when I can't see, your heart's all that I need. These words are from the song, Lift Me Up by The Afters. These are the words that came to me today while watching one of the residents at work.
His wife faithfully comes to visit everyday and most days she is accompanied with a milkshake in hand. Not just any milkshake though, Cookout milkshakes. Only the best for her husband. Today I sat and watched them from my desk. The day was coming to an end for me and I was already finished with what had to be done. Today the residents wife had brought a special treat for him along with an ice cold Mt. Dew (like I said, only the best for her hubby). I watched them make their way out onto the front patio. The resident soon began to chow down and chew on what looked like chocolate yumminess. When finished eating, his wife gently took the napkins she had and washed his mouth clean.
I thought about this and I could feel the tears welling up in the corners of my eyes. Think of something else Dallas, anything else and look away, that is what I kept telling myself. But I couldn't turn away, still I sat and watched and thought about this. An action that may seem so small to others had now consumed my mind. I pondered life and what the future holds for me. How well will I be able to take care of myself?
I have always pictured myself as some fiesty old lady. One quick on her feet-old yes, but not incapable of doing things for myself. Especially something as simple as cleaning my own mouth. Am I wrong for thinking that I will go on living my life without any complications? Absolutely not! But, I should also remind myself that it is okay to let others do things for me from time to time. If you know me, and you know me well, then you know just how stubborn I can be. I guess it's that Dulin blood in me. I had to remind myself that life might not always go as planned. I may be incapable of doing things at some point in my life. I may need someone to take care of me. While this saddens me, I also have to know that this is okay. It is okay to let others do for me.
So if that day should ever come when I need someone to simply wipe my mouth off, I pray that my husband will be right by my side to do so. After all he is the one to lift me up when I am weak, he wraps his arms around me, his love catches me, so it is okay to let go and let him do for me. I also need to know that no matter what the future has in store for me, I can also rest assured that God will ultimately do the same. He does lift me up when I am weak, he wraps his arms around me when I need it the most and his love always carries me through. He continues to be with me when I can't see, and to seek his heart is all that I need. I praise him for reminding me that it is okay to let go and allow others to do for me. I can't do it all by myself. Thank you Lord for lifting me up and always carrying me. I know you will do the same when I am old and gray.