Looking Back

Its funny how quickly four years can go by. I started this blog in the year 2010. Sometimes I go back and I will read what I wrote from time to time. It amazes me the changes I have gone through and how much I personally have grown. Things that mattered to me four years ago might not seem as important today. I have seen friends come and go. I have watched my spunky and resilient little boy grow up and cannot believe he will turn five this year. I have faced many challenges, had ups and downs, changed jobs, laughed and cried. More importantly I have learned so much about myself. I have learned what my strengths and weaknesses are. I have learned that I cant do it all by myself. I have learned to say I can when four years ago, I would have said can't or won't. I have learned to stand up for myself and no longer let people walk on top of me. I have learned when to say yes and when to say no. I have learned to fight for what I believe in. I have learned that I am stronger than I think I am. I have learned that relying and listening to the Lord and allowing things to happen in his timing will ALWAYS be best for me. I could go on for days about how much I have grown as a person, but I won't. I simply want to say that sometimes it is good to go back and reflect on your past. I like to see where I have come from and where I am going. Some people say it is a mistake to dwell on the past...I don't really see it as that. Everything has a place and a time and I have always believed that things happen for a reason. I believe we are like opened books with blank pages. We are cast different rolls in this life and it is up to us how we fill in those blank pages. Each one of us has a story to tell. In the future I hope I can look back and see all those pages in my book being filled. I want to say I lived a good life and that I loved with all my heart. I hope to again see how much I have grown as a person. Once those pages start to finally come to an end, I hope I can look back and say...it was a good one.