Death

Death is a powerful thing, it grips us in such a way, that sometimes words can't even describe the immense pain we are feeling. It cuts deep like a knife. Your lungs unable to breathe. Your eyes so heavy that you can hardly blink. Death is inevitable whether we like it or not. Some will go on to live long lives, while others lives are short lived. Truth of the matter is, we don't know when death will come knocking at our door. It often makes me wonder, would we live our lives differently if we knew the exact moment, even down to the very second we would pass? How differently would we treat one another? Today I received news of someone that passed in a car accident. Someone crossed the center line and their was a head on collision. In an instant, that person lost their life. Gone... I thought about the family and the pain they will endure in the upcoming days. Decisions now must be made. Today also marks my Pawpaw, Larry Dulin Sr's Birthday. My mind drifted to my Mawmaw. Christmas Eve will make two years since he went on to be with our Heavenly Father. I thought about what all he did for her while here on this Earth and what a loving Husband and Father he was. I thought about the days after he passed. I thought about how long my grandparents had been married and how much they relied on one another. Most of all, I thought about the empty bed my Mammaw now comes to each night. My Pawpaw is no longer there to embrace her, to wrap his arms around her and hold her tight. The Dinner table is no longer she and my Pawpaw, two sets of silverware, have now become one. Jeremy and I will celebrate nine years together this upcoming February. I cannot even begin to imagine my life without him. It makes me appreciate him that much more. It makes me appreciate life in general. For the family that lost their loved one today, it will affect each and every person in some way, shape or form. The road ahead will not be easy, and life just got a little more bumpy. Questions will be asked and hearts will be burdened. Tears will fall and a pain like no other will now be felt. Lives are forever changed. I don't think there is a time limit when it comes to grieving the loss of a loved one. You don't just get over it in a few days, weeks or months...who is to say you ever will? We each grieve in our own way. No manual needed. And while life seems to cease at the moment, the world moves on with or without us. Death changes us in a way like no other. They say that 1.8 people die each second, that is 108 people per minute, 155,060 per day and 56,597,034 each year. That knife just cut a little deeper. No matter how we put it, death affects each and every one of us. I pray for the family that lost their loved one today. I pray for strength and a peace that passes all understanding. I pray for comfort during this difficult time. There may be some of you out there today dealing with the loss of a loved one. Whether it be in the past, or fairly new, the hurt is still there and it is very real. I would imagine the holiday season doesn't make it any easier. I pray that God would be with you during these trying times. I pray that the memory of your loved ones is never too far from your mind, and I pray that with time all wounds are healed. Family and Friends may come and go, but they will never be forgotten. May their memory live on forever. To my Gramps, Grand Mommy, Great Grandma, Oscar, Uncle John, Gunnar, Rascal and Pawpaw, you are loved and will be forever missed. Until we meet again...